a little bit about yours truly.

I often find people's "about me" pages rather contrived, a little too over the top and sometimes gives off such a "why you should love me" kind of vibe. I've never been into the performative type of thing and I HATE the thought of selling myself. So honestly, this won't be that. 

Instead, i'll use this bit to talk about why I even bothered to do a site in the first place. I think most importantly, for me it was to free up space on my phone; its thats real. When I tell you I do everything on my phone.... I do EVERYTHING on my phone. Write pieces, write essays, write pitches, take photos, record long ass monologues that never see the light of day, video every show and adventure I set out on. Its both really bad and really good. 

Good because I have a wealth of things to look back on, as a critically acclaimed mastermind with adhd, more often than not i've forgotten what I even did yesterday. Having a pool of things i've shot, written and created means I have a vault of constant sweet reminders. However, bad because.. bro. I HAVE NO SPACE LEFT. *insert-i've-got-nothin-left-ian-beale-meme* 

So I need somewhere to store all my sh_t, quite literally. and I think I do such a disservice to myself not letting these things fly off my phone and into the world, so that's what this is for.

If you *are* actually interested in knowing who I am, then lets go for lunch. That's probably the most simplest and genuine way we'll build any sort of real connection. Orrrrr to understand a smidge of my free spiritedness and the silly chaos of my mind, i'd say rummage through my tweets (not advisable really sksksks).

All in all, i'm a lover of all things that feel good. I enjoy doing good, I enjoy indulging in good things, I enjoy feeling good, I enjoy reaping the goodness of the sweet seeds I sow. I think its super important we all use our energy wisely in this lifetime and that's something I consciously make the effort to do. I find i'm only great at this because it's woven into my character, but also because I know how it feels to live and act in an opposing energy to this. It doesn't feel good. and remember as stated, I LOVE FEELING GOOD.

I used to think i'd only feel good working in music, then I worked in Marketing at a massive label and worked in Publicity. I did enjoy my jobs but I thought.. oh. okay was that it? I realised what I really wanted was to just feel fulfilled, in anything i do for work and for leisure. I do consultancy & project manage events for vulnerable children over the holiday periods now, something I never knew i'd be into, but its the most fulfilled and purposeful I've evereverever felt. I get to utilise the best parts of my mind, heart and soul but even with this, I still know the gaping hole in my being needs other constant creative fillings and now i'm just set on doing everything and anything because no joke... I LITERALLY CAN. 

Like I can actually do anything I put my mind to its ridiculous. I'm a smoking hot charming magician if I do say so myself. It's also kinda sick (derogatory) that I've had bouts of anxiety for so long convincing myself I couldn't? Hilarious. Like the only things I genuinely can't do are pull ups, a handstand with no wall support and trust my parents. And even then, I know I could do all three things if I really tried. I guess I don't want to. lmao.

I just hope to make a positive impact in the world and amongst people I meet, and to be honest; I feel like i'm doing a pretty good job at this already. My deepest desire is that everything I put my heart and effort into, makes a difference to at least one person. I enjoy helping others and playing a part (no matter how small) in making a united vision manifest, especially creatively.

Okay I've yapped enough. Lucky you're not getting one of my infamous 10+ minute voice notes mate. 

Anywhoooo, I love you all like God loves you. Stay sexy, stay kind & always find something to laugh about.

C xoxoxoxoxoxoxox